La Uva

There are so many moments, even approaching the midst of my life, where I still wonder what I will do when I grow up. It seems absurd.

When I was 12, I wanted to be a neurosurgeon. At 20 a counselor in addictions. I became a counselor in addictions. I have always attained my goals, once stated. I simply am unsure of what my goals presently are.

I love my daughter, but eventually, she will be ensconced in her own life. Where will I be then. What passion will move me. What will I be accomplishing.

I don't regret the pause in my career. It feels clearer to me to be a mother than anything I've yet done. And what is next?

I feel at a crossroads.